OOOPS!

I almost forgot this blog existed with how busy we have both been.

Colton got a new job. & goes to school now.
I stopped teaching.
We are enjoying the summer together.
Our home is coming together beautifully.
I am becoming a pro cook.
We realllly enjoy our hot tub and neighbors.
We leave on a 10 day vacation; spending 3 nights in New Orleans, and then 7 nights on a Carnival Cruise that visits - The Bahamas and Key West, Florida. CANT WAIT.
More in love than ever before - <3

weight loss.

I'm not going to cry to everyone and tell them how fat I am. Because...I'm definitely not fat, and I know that. However, I've had body issues my whole life. I remember thinking I was fat at age eight (when really I was stick thin). I will often tell myself how fat I am and then realize I'm acting irrationally. I think it has to do with being a dancer. I fear for my daughters one day because damn it sucks. Maybe every girl feels this way? I hope that I'm not the only insecure woman out there like this. Well living with someone ultimately they know everything about you. So as Colton watched me rip through our closet because I feel "fat" in pretty much everything I wear he told me - you'll only feel good about yourself if you work out harder and eat better. And he was right. I can't sit here and complain while I'm eating like crap and working out but I wasn't doing cardio hardly enough. Well kids, I think this journey is going to be even easier than I thought. My starting weight was 123. I want to feel like one hot mama standing next to Colton's killer body while we are in the Bahamas so I am doing it! I have been eating freakishly healthy and working out even harder the past week. I have already dropped 6 lbs Which is crazy. I've never ever been this thin. Just in one week? I now weigh 117 and my goal weight is 113. I am short, like really short so don't forget that 113 is a reasonable weight. Once I get there I'm piercing my belly button! If my body can change this much in one week I can't even imagine how killer it is going to be by the end of June!!! :)

On the left is me at 123, and on the right is me at 117. I will keep posting each weeks progress! :)

Six days

Until I get a day off.

I get to get all dolled up.

Wear a new dress.

With heels of course.

And spoil my man on his birthday.

Can't even wait!

Addictions.

I have a few. I was thinking about it and it's possible I could be featured on TLC's "My Strange Addiction"

-sweet potatoes and brown rice. Mann my go to!

-hot sauce. Anything and everything I can put it on. I will.

-working. Some people think i am on crack for having three jobs. I might be considering I'm scheduled for the next eighteen days straight!! Yiiikes. I love money though. Too much.

-painting my nails. I have to change them out at least every three days.

-keeping out house clean. Yes I might have been known to have a messy bedroom for 21 year but my home is always 100% perfectly put together or I will have an anxiety attack.

Everything Always Falls Into Place...

I am the truest believer in "The Secret" I've read it over a dozen times and it has definitely been sort of like a religion to me (not honestly - because that would be weird). What I'm trying to say is if there is something I believe in, it's that you get what you give. If you put out positive vibes you will receive a positive outcome and if you put out negativity you will in return get negativity.

Thinking with positive intentions has given me a lot in life; it's helped me; score jobs, get over heartbreak like it was nothin', get solo pieces in dance concerts, complete school with great grades, make extra money, and receive lots of extra blessings along the way.

Colton and I always tell each other to be positive and it's paid off. He has been stuck on what he wants to do with his career in life. (I am currently stuck now also, considering I'm not looking towards teaching another year). And he has just been blessed with an amazing opportunity. My dad is an electrician at Rio Tinto (Kennecott, and some other companies I don't know the names of) and has offered to hire Colton on as an apprentice where he will work full time and make good money, receiving $1 raises every six months. He will also go to school for four years to be certified on Tuesday and Thursday nights which would be paid for. When he finishes the program he will start to make excellent money. This is a huge deal. They never hire anyone on who has absolutely no history with the electrical field (okay, maybe not never, but it is certainly super rare). Colton hasn't decided on anything yet - it's a huge life long decision. But it's something awesome to think about it and I'm just excited he has the opportunity to begin with.

Colton and I have been staying positive about him finding a steady job that could allow me to go back to school and work part time, and eventually one day allow me to stay home while he works (far in the future). This could be it!!!

love you, Colty.

Good News Minute

Well I promised I would be positive. (to those 3 whole readers out there...)

-This week is teacher appreciation week. Holla! It's nice. Really.
-Tomorrow is Valentines day and I'm in LOOOVE
-Colton and I scored big on our taxes and are getting those SOON
-Move in day = almost 18 days away.
-I get to hang out with Colton all day on Saturday before he goes to Wendover.
-I bought 3 cute travel coffee mugs for us today (sorry Colty, they were only $3 each)
-My dance I'm choreographing competes in 9 weeks and we WILL be ready.
-I am going to the gym in 8 hours because I don't want to have to spend Valentines evening at the gym.
-I have a buy one get one free shoes card from Forever Young that I can't wait to use!
-Colty and I found OUR couch now we just have to decide on what color; red, beige, or chocolate.
-I am working at the spa for extra money, and I picked up a shift this Sunday for the hells of it. I love Sunday's there.


GOOD NIGHT! I better get some sleep if I want to wake up early tomorrow! Love ya'll!

rough. days.

lately i've been having rough days.

i seriously am about to give up on my job.
let's face it - i'm not the worlds best teacher.
and yes i'm a rookie - but no it's not getting easier, it actually seems to be getting harder.
I did hear that these next two months is like "teacher depression" time and we all feel this way.
but i just don't even know if it's worth it. if i did this for the rest of my life - i would be an old hag by 35 no doubt about it.

the good news is only one more month until we move into our new place. it's frustrating knowing we have so much to buy while trying to save for a cruise but doing it together is really a blessing, colton is amazing and is always making sure i'm happy and that i still get everything i want (like my hair done and shopping trips) even though we are being tight asses with the wallets lately.

decorating is fun but i'm just annoyed that i can't actually do anything until we move in.

my parents are amazing and helping us out like buying us a tv and giving us their dining room table and an entertainment center. they really are the best people ever.

maybe i'm feeling down right now because i had the worlds worst day (coffee spill down me while walking into work, late to work, forgot classroom keys, got pulled over) and because i have a pounding headache and miss colton, wish he was here but he's at work! grrrrrr.

anyway - i will be back to my happy posts next time. there is so much to be happy/grateful about. loves.

p.s. i understand i didn't capitalize anything that should be capitalized on this post - just one of those days where i don't give a shit. haha.

Cruise!

BEST NEWS EVER!!!

Colton and I are going on a Cruise to the Bahamas on June 28th, 2012! Colton's dad invited us and told us all we need to pay for is my part which we are saving up for and airline tickets. My mom has worked for Continental for 20 years so she gets great deals and we will use her benefits to fly out to New Orleans and port from there!

The cruise is a whole week and I seriously can't wait. I know it's not for a while but I have a feeling June is going to come faster than we all think! Ahhhh. I need to get into the summer air - pronto!

Willshire Place.

Well kids, the time has come that I move out of my parents house! I am 21 now. I did once live on my own while attending college for a year but I can't say I was really on my own since my parents still paid for everything.

I am actually going to be ON MY OWN. My boyfriend and I decided to take the leap together? Sorta crazy/big step but I know it will work out for us two. We were meant for each other and we are so ready to just grow up and do this TOGETHER. Kind romantic? maybe.

We apartment hunted for a month or so and finally found the place to call home! It's in West Jordan (represent) and it's brand spankin' new...called, Willshire Place. We actually saw it online and both knew instantly we loved it - but after taking a tour of their adorable one bedroom apartment (we thought about a two bedroom and then realized we rather spend that extra $300 a month on ourselves and not an empty bedroom) we fell in love. Everything is spacious and new and nice and clean and perfect for us. The area is where we wanted and although it is pretty dang west it's still close enough to both of our works.

I am so excited! Since the place we are moving into is so popular we can't get in until March 3rd but that gives us both a ton of time to save, save, save and make sure we have a comfortable few months rent before and also have lots of money for... furniture, a TV, cute decorations, all the house stuff you need.

I am so excited! Colton texted me while I was working yesterday and said, "We got the place" because we hadn't heard back from them in a week or so, so naturally, I made Colton call. I can't stop thinking about decorating and all the fun house stuff we get to do!

I'm also extremely excited for the swimming pool in the summer, it's so nice ahhh and the hot tub! And of course I'm excited to live with my best friend every single day. I can't wait to wake up next to him and not have to say goodbye at 2 in the morning when he wakes me up to leave and think how sad it is that he has to drive an hour home.

6 weeks and counting! New chapter in life, here I come!!!

here is the website for our NEW, BEAUTIFUL, HOME!!! --------------> http://www.wilshireplaceapts.com/

Work. It. Out.

Since the middle of October I've been religiously going to the gym. I've always worked out a few hours a week by teaching dance (and call me crazy but teaching third graders HAS to be considered a work out also...but, that could be a whole other blog post). I mean, really going to the gym and weight training. Thanks to my super sexy boyfriend for teaching me how to do almost everything. I was always afraid to go to the gym because I didn't know how to work the machines and thought people would think to themselves, "wow that chick does not know what she's doing" but the truth is...I'm actually really good at it.

Truth is I've never LOVED my body - The problem is when you're a dancer you criticize every single mark, dimple, line, crease, ANYTHING on your body. Actually, I'm sure any girl does this but I am a true and strong believer in the fact that dancers have it the worse. Dancing in college I weighed 124 (I'm 5'3") at the most and when I looked at myself I saw an obese girl looking back at me because I might have been bloated one day or I was comparing myself to someone else with a stick thin body type. Honestly I've never had a killer bod, I've always just been a body that is "fine"  or "good" but why not love it? It's not like I need to lose 100 lbs or even 10 lbs. I have it made easy for me to get toned and perfectly in shape if I want to be. Not to mention I'm 21 and only getting older - who doesn't want to have their dream body while they're my age?

 After starting working out I am starting to really love myself and realize how blessed I am!

It's been three months now and things are going great. I weigh 5 less pounds than what I weighed the first of October (which puts me at about 117) and I am even rockin' a pair of jeans that are a size 25. I have to admit (and I swear I'm not bragging) I'm glad that I can still fit into my jeans I wore Jr year of high school. Although I think I lost some of what was toned before I am definitely gaining it back.

When I danced 5+ hours a day I didn't ever have to worry about gaining weight but since that ship has sailed (for now) I need to be making sure I am active! Although I haven't stuck to the best diet ever I keep reminding myself to eat healthy and drink less soda every day. I can totally feel a difference in how I feel.

The best gratification of all though, was, the other day as I was working out this lady who was probably in her late 20's - early 30's (and in decent shape - I mean the chick was wearing just a sports bra and some yoga pants) came up to me and asked me what she should do to work her triceps out! Ummm...score! I'm now the girl at the gym who people look at and think, "this bitch knows what she is doing!" (I realllly have to double no, triple thank Colton for that!).

Not to mention I've been getting more compliments than ever like, "how do you stay so little?" and things like that. It makes the hour and half I put a day into sweating my ass off at the gym totally worth it.

Here is a jot down of my workout sched.

Monday - 15-30 minutes of cardio, & abs (plus I teach dance for 1.5 hours)
Tuesday -  15-30 minutes of cardio & legs
Wednesday - 15-30 minutes of cardio & abs, I add chest here if I have time, (plus I teach dance for 1 hour)

Thursday - 15-30  minutes of cardio & arms

Friday - 15-30 minutes of cardio & abs

Saturday - 1 hour of intense dance technique class (major cardio), & back

Sunday - This is my makeup day - I usually don't go unless I missed a day or two in the week. I usually keep it light even if I do go. With my crazy schedule it's hard to really go six times a week but it sure feels good when I do!

Also just a tip that Colton taught me, you should work out each part of the body with at least four different exercises for that specific muscle. Each exercise should be done in 4 sets, 10 reps each.

Oh and by the way here are my fitness goals:
-Lower body fat percentage, not just look good in a bikini but look irresistible in a bikini, wear those new cute in style shirts that show a little bit of your stomach this summer without feeling stupid about it, tone up, be stronger, get a belly ring for the hell of it (I know that's not a true fitness goal but I hate girls that don't have a perfect stomach and have a belly ring...so basically, I want a perfect tummy).


The reason for this blog post kids is just to say; STICK to your goals! You can do it, I can do it. It's all possible and so worth it. If you want something go after it - it's hard and it isn't immediate - I still have a long way to go but progress is there and anything is possible with hard work and determination. If you don't like something about yourself, CHANGE IT!